Greater

Lord, it all comes back so easily. I find myself so far from you. I find myself relying on circumstances to pacify my stress, my anxiety, my feeling of incompleteness. YOU ARE ALL I NEED.

Lord make my heart believe that.

It’s so easy to know in my head that you are all I need and yet so difficult to feel it in my heart.

Oddly enough, things go well and I flee from you. You become superfluous when circumstances no longer give me pain.

God I want you to be my everything all the time. I want to not let circumstances dictate my identity, because it only ever feels good for so long.

The thrill of success is so fleeting.

The joy of finding my identity in achievement is so short-lived.

God I want a joy that surpasses  all understanding. I want a guarantee of my identity that does not waver or fade. I want my hope to be in You.

God, teach me not only to come to you in the pain, but to come to you in the pleasure.

God I want it to be true of my life that You are my Shepherd, and I shall not want. Let there be no discontent in me, for it is only ever a sign of my lack of trust in you.

I’m in love with this right now:

I hear a voice

And it calls me Redeemed

When others say I’ll never be enough

And greater is the One living inside of me

Than he who is living in the world.

~MercyMe

God you are so great.

Every time I fall, there will be those who call me a mistake.

There will always be those that fall into the trap I was stuck in for so long – believing that this world is all there is.

I keep falling down. I keep messing up. I keep shifting my gaze from Him to things of this world. But how small do I think He is if I think He can’t keep working in me?

There’ll be days I lose the battle

Grace says it doesn’t matter

‘Cause the cross already won the war

He’s Greater

 

I am learning to run freely

Understanding just how He sees me

And it makes me love Him more and more

He’s Greater

 He is so good. He is so so good. Thank the Lord that He is greater, because I am not. Thank the Lord that the cross already won the war, because I can’t fight it on my own anymore. Thank the Lord that even when I lose the battle, His work only serves to make me love Him more.

Praise the Lord for He is gracious and good and merciful and loving.

Sometimes it takes stumbling a little to fully revel in the utter ridiculous amazingness of that truth.